Do what you love.

Moving down to the valley has been a wonderful, scary, exciting, devastating, miraculous journey so far. I have been down here a little over a year, and I have gone through every emotion possible. I knew life was hard, but never quite expected it to be this tough. But as the saying goes.."the adventure is in the journey, not the final destination."

Being on my own, I have challenged myself to do everything I have always wanted to do. Living in fear of what people think doesn't hurt anybody but yourself. A few weeks after moving out of my parents house, I made a list of everything I have always wanted to do. Good, bad, or indifferent...if my heart desires it I'm gonna go after it. This list consisted of everything from small gestures to big outlandish ideas. It is a private list, because when you keep things to yourself the joy you get after accomplishing them, is beyond amazing!

However I decided to go public with one of the items on my list...
One morning, I was sitting on my bed playing the guitar. <--a dream of mine, since I was a little girl. (I'm not any good, and I don't plan on taking it anywhere..but with the help of youtube.com and the thoughts in my head, I have started writing my own music.) I thought it would be fun to take an artistic picture with my guitar.
Scared of how people would react about me posting it on networking sites such as Facebook..I sought out advice from a dear friend of mine who has always encouraged me to play the guitar and stay true to who I was deep down. He asked, "if you care about it, then why care what other people think?" 
So with the confidence to put it up, I did. It wasn't long until an ex of mine commented on it..his words brought me to tears. Stunned at how hateful his words were, I text my buddy, he replied with a simple "as far as he knows! techniqually you are a guitar player : )"
And it's true, not everybody knows everything about a person. Not everybody knows all about me. There is a lot that I keep private, I have learned over the last three years that the only person you can truly trust is yourself. So instead of pleasing everybody else..make the only person that really matters happy, yourself.

So I will continue to mark off things from my list. And I will keep teaching myself how to play the guitar, despite the rude remarks that the world has to say.
Because all I can do is stay true to myself. And keeping doing whatever it is I find intriguing.